Ok, I am Fat
Every time I look at the mirror, I always wonder what if I was 30 lbs. lighter? What if I can go to the beach and flaunt my stunning tan in a two piece bikini swimsuit without scaring the heck out of all the men around? What if, I was sexier? Sometimes, these insecurities bother me. But as they say, LOVE conquers all! And with my LOVE FOR FOOD, my insecurities go away!
To be honest, I don’t think I am fat. It’s just that I am way too smart that my head could not contain all of the intelligence inside it slipped down my body. 🙂 Yep, that is denial at its finest. Well, at least I have a good rebuttal to those who open a conversation, “mare! ang taba taba mo!”. I am not obese, I am probably just a few pounds heavier than what women my height should be. (not sure how many pounds over though… last time I checked the weighing scale, I broke it! haha)
This is the TV and advertising industry’s fault. Women were made to believe that you have to have that bottle figure in order for you to be called sexy. That you have to be able to wear those skimpy shorts and save cloth and animals from dying. Common, let’s face it, at one point in our lives, we all wished we could be slimmer, toner, sexier. And some have probably spent some fortune to maintain those.
I have tried to trim down my weight. I had a membership in the gym, I tried jogging every morning, I even became conscious about my calorie intake everyday. All of these were futile. The same way I expected to meet my prince charming at 23 and live happily ever after. They were just fairy tales.
But I am not loosing hope. I am not giving up.
I will wait for my forever and ever who will love me despite my size. Who will eat buffet with me and hug me like I’m a giant stuffed teddy bear! I have accepted the fact that I am really too smart! ….uhm… ok, I am really fat! So what?!
If there’s one thing I can be grateful for, it’s that I still feel that despite my weight, I am healthy. Ok, some of you will probably debate and argue, how come? For one, the worst I had for the past year is cough and colds. A slight fever that never lasted a day. Having said that, it became clear to me that the knee-jerk connection I and apparently others might make between how much a person weighs and how physically fit and healthy she is needed some serious reevaluation. So I did some research…
Recent study suggests that being overweight or even obese may not, in and of itself, be the health threat we think it is. A 2012 study from the National Cancer Institute found that moderately obese people actually lived about 3.1 years longer than normal-weight women and men.
source European Heart Journal
None of this is to say that we can pack on pounds without worry. Carrying a lot of weight around increases stress on joints and can make us less inclined to be active.
Good thing I have Oleia Topical Oil handy for my joints and muscle pains!
But that does not justify my intent on doing an eating barrage. There’s also the plain reality that the more overweight you are, the more likely it is that your metabolic health will take a hit, now or in the future.
Having said all these, I am calling out all the other buffet ladies out there, let’s start the road to being healthier! Here’s what I plan on doing the next few months and I will keep you posted on my progress!
- I have fully accepted the truth. I am fat and beautiful. That is the truth. But I have also learned to understand what my preference is. I prefer to be called beautiful only. 🙂
- I am not quitting anymore. I learned that even if people do lose some weight from exercise, they often don’t lose as much as they expect to. For many, that’s reason enough to abandon their routines and head back to the couch.
- I will not stop moving just because the scale has. I will be out there almost every day, walking, biking, hiking, or weight lifting. I will feel comfortable in my body.
- I have decided to look great all the time. Enough with the shapeless sweats and tees! I am wearing fab plus-size selections moving forward.
If you’re like me, that makes the two of us. You are not alone. We are not. There’s nothing wrong with our love for food. What is life if we can’t enjoy simple pleasures of life. If we can’t order what we want and jump in buffet tables like it’s our last.
But the most important of all is our love for our bodies that will encourage us to take care of it better.
About The Author
Charlotte has tried every buffet restaurant in the Metro and is on the quest to try the ones in the provinces soon. She's an active blogger and you can find her in her think tank in Marco Polo on weekdays. She used to think Oleia Topical Oil can help her loose weight since it's good for inflammation only to realize it's better for after work massages.